I will refuse to dance...
to the pressure
to be or to do.
or to prove something.
In order to win someone's love.
Or acceptance.

I am not a slave to the opinions of others.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

my momma

Happy Birthday to my momma!

I can't thank God enough for giving her as my mother. She is my rock. She raised me to be a very independent woman. She taught me to fear the Lord. She is my best friend. I tell her everything under the sun. She has loved me through the garbage and through the good times. My mom is an amazing woman.

So thank you mom for loving me. thank you mom for raising me to fear the Lord. I am so blessed to call you mom. I am so blessed to have you. Through our Ranger loving, singing, talks, bad moments, and goofy moments I wouldn't trade one of them with you. You are such a blessing. Thank you for loving me.

So happy birthday mommy. I hope your day was fantastic, sorry I couldn't be there with you. You are amazing and i love you to the moon and back!! :)

Thursday, January 19, 2012

My Sister My Friend

So today, my baby sister turned the big sweet 16....crazy how time flies. It feels like yesterday when i was asking Santa Clause for a baby sister.....dressing her up....playing school or house with her.....playing Cinderella.

Anyway... I just wanted to wish my baby sister a happy birthday. She means the world to me. She is extremely beautiful, smart, athletic, funny, and so much more.... She means the world to me. She is always that one person I can talk to and just crawl into her bed and watch tv with. We may fight but the good times outweigh the bad any day!

She loves Jesus. She loves volleyball. She loves life. She is my life. I love her to the moon and back a few hundred times. I hope she has a great birthday!!!

I cant wait to watch the woman she's gonna be! :) Stay strong sister!

Saturday, December 31, 2011

20 Questions on 2011

1. What was the single best thing that happened this past year?

-My trip to Peru. I got to serve Jesus in a beautiful country

2. What was the single most challenging thing that happened?
-Losing my best friends and having to start from scratch on new friendships.

3. What was an unexpected joy this past year?
-Meeting my education girls and some guys from small group and making lasting relationships.

4. What was an unexpected obstacle?
-Having to switch churches, because my old church disbanded and I had to find a new church home.

5. Pick three words to describe 2011.
- Fun, Challenging, Eye-opening

6. Pick three words your spouse would use to describe your 2011 (don’t ask them; guess based on how you think your spouse sees you).
-can't answer this one.

7. Pick three words your spouse would use to describe their 2011 (again, without asking).
-can't answer this one.

8. What were the best books you read this year?REFLECTION QUESTIONS FOR 2011
copyright 2011

- Well I don't read much BUT probably "Crazy Love", "Beyond Belief, the Josh Hamilton story", and "The Help"

9. With whom were your most valuable relationships?
-my family, my education girls, the smith's small group, and the morris' small group.

10. What was your biggest personal change from January to December of this past year?
-my mindset on the future, no need to worry about it. Just one day at a time. Everything will work out in God's time.

11. In what way(s) did you grow emotionally?

-I still have a pretty big walls built up but they are starting to fall slowly.

12. In what way(s) did you grow spiritually?
-Trusting God in all I do and in all the crappy situations let him turn the bad into good.

13. In what way(s) did you grow physically?
-Lost some weight and am in the process of growing out my hair.

14. In what way(s) did you grow in your relationships with others?
-I found people who will be in my life for forever, not just temporary friendships but lasting ones.

15. What was the most enjoyable part of your work (both professionally and at home)?
-School: working hard to achieve good grades. Work: working with some awesome people who enjoy life.

16. What was the most challenging part of your work (both professionally and at home)?
-At the beginning of the year I had a job that taught me that money isn't the main thing in life. It also taught me how to manage money. 200 dollars a month, you learn how to manage money.

17. What was your single biggest time waster in your life this past year?
-Facebook lol but recently pintrest.....OR......relationships that weren't ever going to work out.

18. What was the best way you used your time this past year?
-working in Peru and spending time with friends and serving in my church here at home and at school.

19. What was biggest thing you learned this past year?
-not my time but God's and don't trust people as far as you can throw them (and if you know me thats not far)

20. Create a phrase or statement that describes 2011 for you
-A year full of disappointments but full of huge growth and friendships. A year that helped me grow and see my future plans. A year where God took the nasty stuff I went to and turned it into good. A year that's written in the book and ready to be turned to the next page.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Fall Semester 2011

Hey Guys. So I thought I would update my semester and show yall some of the stuff that happened....

Met a lot of awesome people this semester and made some really lasting friendships!

Those are just a few of them of my awesome friendships

The Rangers almost won the World Series. (sad day, still breaks my heart)

I work at a pretty cool place....
Happy Trails Outdoor Goods and More

I went to college but felt like I was in elementary school.....we sang songs all the time (and by songs i mean like kid songs)

Those are some of the major things, if you want to read more in detail check out my other blog.

Love you bunches and a ton!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Bucket List 10/19/2011

Hey guys!! So I wanted to update my bucket is what I have come up with so far....the old one is first-second one is my new one.

My bucket list!

So this is a list of things i want to do before I die. Some serious, so e stupid, some just funny!

~ go to Africa and work with children!
~ become a wife and mommy
~ teach in an inner-city school
~ hold a baby cheetah
~ ride a motorcycle -DONE
~ try out for American Idol
~ be in two places at once
~ get a tattoo -NOT IMPORTANT
~ flip a house -NOT IMPORTANT
~ run a marathon
~ travel the east coast
~ go to all the major league baseball parks in one summer following the Rangers

Updated List::
~ go overseas and teach.....(eventually with my future family)
~ become a wife and mommy
~ teach in an inner-city school
~ hold a baby cheetah
~ try out for American Idol
~ be in two places at once
~ run a half marathon
~ travel the east coast
~ go to all the major league baseball parks in one summer following the Rangers
~ go fishing/hiking/camping 
~ adopt sweet babies
~accept my self and to see myself as beautiful

Monday, October 10, 2011

Él siempre será el que dejé escapar.

Todo comenzó hace muchos años.
Yo era joven y en el amor.
Fuéramos perfectos, no tiene nada en nuestro camino.
Era mi mejor amigo / a mi socio en el crimen.
Pero como he dicho yo era joven, tonto ..... .... y lo dejó escapar.
Ahora soy más viejo y más sabio un poco.
Ahora me doy cuenta de que era lo mejor que me pasó a mí.
Yo sé que no tienen la oportunidad en el cielo, el infierno, o la Tierra para ser su nuevo.
Pero, ¿cómo yo realmente deseo que podría ser otra vez ....
Él es un verdadero hombre, "el más grande 'a un hombre a cualquier chica le gustaría. Él se mantiene fiel a sus promesas. Los valores de su familia. Y es un hombre de respeto.
Me pregunto si se acuerda de los partidos de futbol, pep, reuniones, juegos de voleibol en el 'pit', y furtivamente alrededor de mamá y papá.
Estábamos imparable hasta que lo dejó de pie frente a mi puerta.
Lo he visto con otras chicas y cada vez que mi corazón se debilita.
Sé que esto es inútil porque fue hace muchos años.
Supongo que una intervención divina podría llevarnos juntos de nuevo
Pero por ahora ...... Él siempre será el que dejé escapar.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

My Daddy

Well today is my old mans birthday. (he's not old). So i thought in honor of my dad I'd try to say a few nice words! :)

My Daddy!
He raised me to serve the Lord
He was there when I accepted Christ as my savior
He baptized me.
He has supported me and stood by me in everything.
He has loved me unconditionally.
He has given me his temper! :)
He has shown me the right path to go down.
He has encouraged me when times get rough.
He has shown me what a TRUE man of God looks like.
He taught me to LOVE baseball
He taught me to look at life and embrace it.
He loved me, even when I messed up.
He shows grace.
He made me realize how important a sense of humor is.
He shows me how a man should love his wife and children
He has taught me what it is like to step out on faith and faith alone.

Those are just a few things my dad is to me. He is an amazing guy. He serves the Lord with his life. He taught me how to step out on complete faith and know that God will provide. I have seen him go through hardships and overcome them. I have gotten the chance to serve with him overseas and in the church we started. I have seen him put hours upon hours to serve others. He has been a rock in my life.

My senior year in High School, I caused an accident and knew that I had to make that phone call. Well in any normal situation I would have gone to mom and then she could be a buffer to dad, but I knew I had to go straight to him. So I called him up and the tone in his voice was of pure love. He wanted to make sure I was okay.....He showed grace and love in that situation........granted I did get a good talking to later, but his first reaction wasn't anger but love.

Freshman year in college I just finished my first semester and home for the Christmas break, and guess what? I made a giant F in algebra (daddy teaches Algebra) I knew I was in some serious trouble.... I was just waiting for the "talk" but instead you know what I got? I got a delicious steak meal with my daddy. Just he and I, and we got to talk about it, and came up with a decision for me to take it the upcoming summer where he could help me pass it. No lecture but pure grace.

I write all this because my dad has shown me amazing love and support over my 20 years of living. He has been a dad that i don't know what I'd do without. So daddy, thank you for all you do.

"Finish Strong"
"Start Strong"
"It feels like we're in another country"
"Come and listen to a story ‘bout a man name Jed, Poor Marylander, barely kept his family fed. Then one day he was shooting at some food, And up through the ground came a bubblin’ crude.

(Oil that is, black gold, Texas tea.)

Well the first thing you know old Jed’s a millionaire.

Kinfolk said, “Jed, move away from there.”
"magic number"